Moments

Tonight on Paramount TV (Channel 127 on Sky tv), i relived one of my favourite-test episodes of Ally McBeal.

Ally and Billy grew up in the same neighbourhood. they fell in love and went out until billy moved away to michigan to study law while ally stayed in boston to study the same degree. twenty years later she joins a law firm and meets billy again, only this time, it's billy and his wife. It takes a couple of seasons, but mostly the sight of ally kissing another man, (a good looking black man doctor named greg) for that matter, to kick billy's selfish, possessive, misogynist instincts into overdrive, and he tells ally:

i have tried denying it, but am now finally unable to withhold it.... that i have never loved anyone and still love anyone the way that...i love... you.

and that's not the best part. a day later he works late and goes to her office, asking her, what happened? she says you tell me. and he replies,

I never thought that I would meet the person of my dreams... at age eight.

and that is the one single phrase i have remembered for the past five years since i first heard it uttered the last i saw that episode. how simple and how sweet. and how sadly true, that we seldom have the courage to believe something that is almost impossibly true when it is staring at us in the face.